Its raining it pouring..... DAMIT!!

So this was me today.....

I got dropped off at work today after panicking that I was going to be late only to discover that I in fact did not have to work today. Normally I would be glad, but not today. My dependence on technology is probably the most to blame for what happened.

So I walk in to work and go to clock in, but the time clock says that I'm not scheduled. Now I was pretty sure that I worked today, so I go to investigate. Long story short, the schedule was changed and I see my time whited out for today (I get to work Saturday instead, woo hoo). As I look at this piece of paper that determines when I belong here, I start to get excited. Hooray I have an afternoon off! I grab my phone to call my ride to come back. but no matter how many buttons I push it does nothing. Its just a big black screen. I walk outside and my heart sinks. Its raining! And not just raining, its raining those big Texas sized raindrops. So because I always have my phone with me and i almost always have it charged I never worry about memorizing phone numbers, there is no need. Well, unless I spent about an hour playing games on my phone between classes and ran the already low battery down.

So I'm stuck, I have no way to call someone to come get me because the only numbers I have memorized are my own and my parents but I think they're at work so no help there. So I wrap my phone and wallet up and start walking ... In the rain.

I made it to my folks house (which is closer then my house), but by the time I got there I was soaking wet. Fortunately of all the people that drove by me only a tow truck driver thought it would be fun to splash me, so I only got covered with street gunk once, well twice if you count the car he was towing.

Now I sit here on the computer, mostly dry, and having told whoever reads this about my awful experience I feel just that much better.

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larrson was a pretty good book, though I had pretty high expectations after all the hype it recieved which it didn't exactly live up to. To quote Sheldon Cooper "once a mind is pre-blown, it cannot be re-blown!" Which I suppose was the case here. Larrson seemed to be a very good writer who wrote what I believe everyone will agree was a very provacative story. It is definately one worth reading and explores aspects of human nature and society that isn't usually touched upon. I suppose I'm more into the classics and science (fiction and non fiction) then possible murder mystery/thriller.

All in all, its was a pretty good book with alot of plot development and good writing. Just don't go into it with your mind preblown and you'll most likely enjoy the hell out it.

Why don't you see?

My heart has stopped.
It will beat no more.
The blood that once flowed
now sits cold.


I've changed since I've met you.
I've lived since I've met you.
If living must kill me
then I'm not sure whats the point.


Your compassionate touch brings me ecstasy.
Your scolding glare rips me apart.
I've hurt you too,
but I just can't stop.


I am lost in your love,
but I drown in your anger.
I've become cold and desperate
Relishing the good and accepting the bad.


My fire used to burn bright
but I've lost the desire to shine.
I've lost my life, my way
and the love of all but you.


I've thought of leaving,
of leaving not just you.
The only thing keeping me
is the person I used to be.


I am sad and I am lonely.
I am happy and I am loved.
They all whorl around me
each emotion striking at will.


I've lost control of myself.
I've let myself go.
I've changed who I am.
I've given up my goals.


But I still hold on.
I still have hope.
Someday I'll speak.
For at last I will find peace.


I love you,
but I see you
better then you see yourself.
Just as you do me.


So why can't you see?
that I'm lost inside?
that I'm dying inside?
or do you see?


I stay because I care.
Can you say the same?
I know we're not perfect,
but why must I take the blame?


My blood pumps no more
and my fire has died?
I'm here because I love you,
but its hard to survive.

Silly Goats

My folks have some land down south where they have created a little farm. There are goats, donkeys, and lots and lots of squash.

Sophie & her Babies : )

Donkeys Dixie & Chloe

I love all the animals, they are pretty funny to watch and will follow you around if they think you'll give them a treat. So naturally when I saw goats on the news I had to share it with everyone. Goats are super sweet and social animals, but they aren't particularly bright. This is one reason why you have to have really good fences that they can't escape or get stuck in. Fortunately there was a happy ending.

Check out this news video!!

Aren't they so cute! Poor Goats! : )

 

 

No on likes you when your 23

So my birthday is in a couple of weeks and I'll be another year older, hopefully I'm wiser. I'll be twenty three, in case you didn't gather that from the title. I'm looking forward to it, especially since it gives me a reason to eat cake and ice cream without any pangs of guilt the next day and I have a good reason to take the day off from work so I can go out to dinner with my family.



What can I say I like giving y'all videos to watch. And I too have no idea why they are running naked through the city! I guess when you're twenty three you go crazy. We shall see! : )

For those of you that will/are bugging me about what I would like as a gift. I typically ask for things like money to fix my car or a new ceiling fan, etc. I have been instructed that birthdays are for wants not for needs. Well I want these needs to be taken care of, and with that in mind I have started a list of items I would greatly appreciate here. I'm mostly looking forward to seeing and hearing from everyone.

That chipmunk looked way cuter

Well its been awhile since I had anything to say, mostly I've been busy blocking out the world. Last week was crazy. Lets see I had 2 finals, worked a 14 hour day, and had my wisdom teeth removed. (Yes in that order seeing as how after the surgery I was on so much medication that I could barely stand up straight.) It wasn't until a day after my surgery that I saw my face in the mirror, and this is what I saw....

Here's a picture I found online. The super chubby cheeks look cute on him. So not fair!

Ok, so not really since I looked way less cute and my face isn't cover with fur. But no worries several stories have been told of crazy things I tried to do while medicated. First of all apparently I decided my tongue did not infact belong inside my mouth and proceeded to try and pull it out with my hands. I have since decided that this was due to the fact that it was swollen to three times its normal size and so dry that it felt like someone had stuffed a giant rolled up sock in my mouth. Now who would think that a giant rolled up sock belongs in thier mouth. Surely, not I. I just thank the lord that I had 4 days off of work and didn't have to explain to my coworkers any new and strange behaviors.

So thats what I've been doing lately, studying, working, and trying to cope with rolled up socks in my mouth. By the way my face is still swollen and still hurts pretty darn bad.

Its Business Time

As I said before I work two jobs. Job #1 -- I do design drafting at an engineering firm I've been there for 4 years now, Jesus that seems like a long time.  Job #2 -- I'm a pharmacy technician (since last November).

Yes I know that they have nothing to do with each other, perhaps later I'll explain how this happened, but not today.

Yesterday was another crazy day at job #2 and I came home went upstairs and passed out on the bed. A few hours later boyfriend came into my room singing a catchy little song. I didn't get it seeing as how I'd never heard it before, but being that I'm already awake now and I am who I am I started singing along even though I have no idea what the words are, sometimes I was singing with him other times I was just making stuff up. Then he breaks out his computer and proceeds to play the song. It was freaking hilarious! I had no idea what I was singing, but now I'm like "OMG this is so freaking hilarious!!"

I realize that this is probably a really old song, but I lived under a rock for the first 20 years of my life and I've only had 2 years to catch up. That being the case, all the awesome and funny stuff that y'all out in Internet land saw years ago is totally amusing to me.

Seriously though, I can remember being in high school and my parents telling me that the TV would melt my brain if I watched to much and that I better not watch that giant python sci-fi movie my sister and I have been drooling over for weeks. Yea, we thought that Disney and sci-fi channel movies were the best things out there. Well, to this day I do still love sci-fi, but not even 1 in 10 Disney movies is good any more and that makes me sad.